Sunday, 18 December 2011 @11:52
"Therapy is a kid's worst nightmare, because everyone is telling them that they need help, when all they really need is hug."- Alex Gaskarth
Hey, it's been a long time since I last blogged. I miss blogging. I miss telling you what I feel. I'm gonna do it now. An anon messaged me on tumblr, and told me hurtful stuffs, like telling me to die, it'd be better if I never exist, I'm a fake fan of All Time Low, which I'm not, and putting me down by saying that I'm fat........ It hurts. It fucking hurts so fucking much. I can handle any critics, bt not when people make fun of my size. I don't even find that funny. I don't even know what to do. I feel like dying. This world sucks to the core. I don't know what I did to deserve such hurtful messages. I've never get one of those before in my whole entire life, and when I got it, there were lots. :'( That anon even wished I'll get hit by a bus. My self esteem is so fucking low right now, blog. Alright, I gtg now.
Labels: Therapy, you were never a friend to me.
Yours Truly,
Monday, 2 May 2011 @03:16
HI! There will be no picture at the starting of this post as I'm using my eldest sister's laptop. Wait, first of all, I wish my youngest sister, HAPPY BIRTHDAY! I love you. Doesn't mean that I always scold, I hate you. I'll never hurt any one of my family members. NEVER! You mean alot to me. Maybe I keep scolding you, correcting your mistakes, because I don't want you to grow up. I don't want you to face the pain like I'm facing one right now. You'll face lots of problems when you're older. I hope you can solve them. Alright, moving on, I have been bullied by 'some people' these days. Actually, I've been bullied since last year, but I have to say, this year is the worst. Last year, when people bullied me, I cried. This time, I've been doing stupid things. They called me fat, and always try to bring me down. Yes, dicks! I give up! I give up being strong. You won. I know I'm fat, I can't run as fast as you people, and I'm not as sexy as other girls. Alright, before I get all emotional, I wanna say that Jessie J is my second favourite singer. <3 Alright people. I gotta go. :)
PEACE.LOVE.NURULA
Labels: Who You Are
Yours Truly,
Sunday, 10 April 2011 @07:17
HEY! OMG! I missed my blog. Well, it's been a long time, huh. I'm bored that's why I'm updating. Plus, I have lots of things to say. Just get ready, okay. Haha. What the fuck am I talking bout? Well... Today's Sunday. Talking bout Sunday, kinda reminds me of Friday-Rebecca Black.... I know what you all are thinking. "SHE SUCK!" I was thinking that too. HAHAHA! I'm such a bitch. I don't even know what you all are thinking. Anyway, I have bangs! YAY! Did it last month. I really liked it. :) Alright, I don't have lots of things to say today, but have a thing to say. About this guy. Whatever it is, I hope he will not find my blog because I never tell anybody my blog url. Except for the people I linked. I like a guy. We were in the same class last year. I didn't have feelings for him last year, but I don't know why this year, I'm falling head over heels for him. He is always there for me, always my listening ear. I tell him every problems I have, everything I've been keeping for so long. I just trust him so much. We've been texting each other for so long. He never fails to make me smile whenever we talk. Whenever I see him, I'll always have butterflies in my stomach. I've been giving him signals that I have feelings for him, but... Yeah.. He is a really great guy. He will not be mine, but I know that he'll be a great boyfriend to a lucky girl. To that lucky girl, I hope you will treasure him. Love him. Don't break his heart because he is a really sensitive guy. I know because I broke his heart once, and I regretted it. To you, maybe you will not be mine, but I just want you to know that I love you :') We shared what we feel together, but there are still some things I don't know about you. You may be the geek in our class, but there is a girl that have feelings for you. :) Right. Bye. :)
PEACE.LOVE.NURULA
Labels: It Was Enchanted To Meet You.
Yours Truly,
Friday, 11 February 2011 @09:39
HEY! I've missed you so much dear blog. Lots of things have been happening while I was MIA on blogger. Created a Tumblr account. I hope you're not angry. Plus, I have not been updating that's because my laptops broke down. LKE FUCK! My classmates are not that immature like last year. They're better now. Well, kinda better. They mind their own business. Everybody just chill. I'm sitting With Yasin. He's great. Funny. Biatch is sitting infront of me. Sadly, she's sitting with an annoying boy, Zhen Ping. SUCH AN ANNOYING BOY! Hands down. Seriously, he keeps calling fat pig. Come on lah, it's like you so thin like that. If you have the balls to say that to me, let's see if you have the freaking balls to say infront of our teacher. Yeah! Moving on, I wanna new phone. Like, seriously, I've dropped my phone lots of times. I feel so sad. I hope you're not getting sick. I'm planning on getting a Nokia N97. It looks cool. GOD, I can't wait to own that goddamn phone. :) Practically, I am obsessed with All Time Low. I mean, who doesn't?! They're lookin' dang fne now! Well, they're new album, Dirty Work is coming out.. REAL SOON! Fuck, I can't wait! Nothng Personal is awesome.. I bet Dirty Work will be like 10x awesomer than Nothing Personal. I kinda miss being a Tokio Hotel freak. I used to watch their interviews EVERY SINGLE FUCKING DAY, and now, even when I have a phone that could access internet, I never watch their videos. I feel so sad. :'( Whatever, I still LOVE them. They are doing great now! Anyway, have you guys heard Born This Way-Lady Gaga?! It's awesome shit! She is so amazing! I can't believe people don't like her anymore now that they know she's illuminati. Well, I don't give a fuck! I still love her no matter what. I have a friend, Malcolm, he really LOVES Lady Gaga, just lke I do. He is like my long lost twin brother. 2011, fuckng great things will happen this year. Dirty Work, Lady Gaga's new album, Demi Lovato new album(maybe a solo tour yeepee!), and more. I'm so happy that Demi's not in the treatment centre anymore. She has been going through a very hard time. She s a great role model, and to her haters, FUCK OFF! This year is going to be her goddamn year, I swear! I know people will HATE me for saying this, but I think Bieber is stealing Lady Gaga's spotlight. I'm just sayin'. During AMA's, Eminem should win the Artist Of The Year, but Bieber won. Like WTF! Eminem is way older, and more experienced than that boy. He's got a magic spell on him. Maybe he went to Hogwarts or something. I don't know. Haha. Man! I still have lots of things to say. I'm watching Juno right now since I'm so bored. Well, I have to pause Juno because I wanna blog. Listening to Here Goes Nothing-Never Shout Never, and tumblr-ing while blogging. I don't wanna end this post like this. I still have lots of things to say, goddamnit! My butt is fuckiing numb because I've been sitting for like 2-3 hours? SHIT, my phone is in the living room! I am so lazy to take it. How I wish I have freaking long hands so that if I am comfortably lying on my bed, and I forgot to turn on the lights, I could just stretched one of my hands. :) I know, wow! Okay, I wanna watch Juno. Night!
PEACE.LOVE.NURULA
Labels: Fucked Up
Yours Truly,
Thursday, 28 October 2010 @20:40
HEY, PEOPLE!!!!!!! Yay, I'm freakin' back! I'm so happy right now! Okay, I've gotta stop with the exclamation marks. So, lots of things happened when I didn't update this dead blog. ALOT! I can't even remember some things that happened. Well, I get promoted to Secondary 2! Yes! But sad to say that I didn't do that well for EYE, but who cares? I get promoted. Anyway... Did you see that guy ^?
That's Paul DiGiovanni. He's a hot guitarist!!! And I'm in love with him. :) You people probably know him. He's the lead guitarist of Boys Like Girls. YEAH!! So, tomorrow, I'll be going for Mendaki Camp. I can't wait!!! I think it'll be fun. There will be two camps that I have to attend altogether. Mendaki Camp, and NPCC AC Camp. By the way, I think this year is a very dramatic year for me. I don't like it, but I have to go through. I hope 2011 will not be so dramatic coz if it is, I don't think I'll be able to handle it. I miss my friend. I don't like us not talking anymore. I just hate the tension between us. Yes, I do feel guilty. Moving on, few weeks ago, I went out with my two babes, Shahira, and Adyrah. Had so much fun! Like lots of fun!!! Laughed alot, and of course, there were gossips too. Right now, I can't wait for another outing. Maybe, we will be going swimming. So... If you guys are notice my label, it's for these two guys that I have a crush on. I know, I'm being a bitch for liking two guys at the same time, but they are just good guys. They don't treat girls like crap. They are just good. Okay, I don't wanna talk more bout these guys or else I'll miss them more coz it's school holiday already, and I can't meet them for two months. So, yeah. Buh-bye!
PEACE.LOVE.NURULA
Labels: But I Like Him, I Love You
Yours Truly,
Wednesday, 11 August 2010 @23:07
Hey Party People! I'm freakin' back. My blog is so DEAD! I'm updating my blog now. DUH! Haha, so what's going on? I hope everything's fine. :) I'm feelin' fine, because it's fasting month! Yay! I hope all the Muslims out there are fasting, because if you're not, your Hari Raya is gonna be crappy. I'm serious. Okay, whatevs. Actually, I don't know what to blog. Ummmmm, I'm addicted to these webbies.
Hahaha! I don't know what to talk about! It's like solving a Math question. I MISS MY TWO BESTFRIENDS!!!!!!!!!! LIKE HELL!!!!! I WANNA MEET THEM SO BAD!!!!! I just can't wait till Teachers' Day. Okay, watevs, I'm signing out. I HAVE NOTHING TO SAY!
PEACE.LOVE.NURULA
Labels: A Piece Of Shit
Yours Truly,
Saturday, 10 July 2010 @09:22
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PEOPLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'M BACK!!!!! Me miss?! Haha, I was joking. Lots of things happened, and I didn't have any time to update this crappy blog. During June holiday, I did lots of things. Things didn't turn out the way I expected. Well, I can't expect that much. I didn't know how start. How bout, we skip the June holiday part, and talk about what happened these few days? Okay? Alright, the first day of school(school reopen) wasn't that fun. Everybody still have their holiday mood, and were sleepy. Last Friday, I had NPCC training. Actually, there was no training because it was raining heavily, and we get our NPCC UNI! AWESOME! Can't wait to wear it! Ummmmm, I've watched Eclipse!! Edward was hot! I closed my eyes when Jacob and Bella kissed. I'm not a fan of Jacob and Bella. I'm an Edward and Bella fan! Didn't went to school this week. I was damn sick. I don't wanna talk bout my sickness. All I know is that I miss my friends. HEY, I'm fine now! All Time Low and Boys Like Girls are my current obsession right now. All Time Low is really talented, and Alex Gaskarth, Ima give you 5 stars for your live singing. He's really awesome when he sings live. JACK BARAKAT(ATL), he's an awesome, and a cute guitarist. He looks like Paul DiGiovanni(BLG). He's an awesome, and a cute guitarist too. I don't like Martin Johnson(BLG) that much because he sucks at singing live. Zack Merrick(ATL) and Bryan Donahue(BLG) are hot! Zack has pretty darn nice body, and he can play the bass without using a pick. HOW AWESOME IS THAT?! Me likey. Rian Dawson(ATL) is a great drummer! John Keefe(BLG) is not cute, hot or handsome, but a great drummer too! Whatever it is, Tokio Hotel is still the first in my band list. I love them to bits. Hell yeah! Movin' on, I'm starting to like him more, and more. I know it's wrong for me to like him, but I just can't help myself to like him. My head tells me to forget him, but my heart tells me to like him. I'm really confuse. It's really stupid to go googoogaga over a guy that doesn't know that you like him, but I feel like I know him already. I feel like he's my bestfriend. A very close friend. He brings me up whenever I'm down. He tells me sweet words to make me happy. He never fail to make me laugh or smile. When will that day come back? I miss those days. I miss you. I miss everything. I don't just like you, but I think I love you. You make me nervous when you're around. Butterflies in my stomach when I think bout you. I really hate you for making me feel like this. I don't believe in love at first sight, but I like you when I saw you for the first time. I love it when you looked hotter than your hair. You're not only hot, handsome, and cute, but you're kind-hearted, and have a good heart. No, a very good heart, and I like you for that. Well, the more I think about you, the more I like you. Ummmm. I think I have to go. Buh-bye!!
PEACE.LOVE.NURULA
Labels: She Lives In A Fairytale
Yours Truly,
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